Break out the confetti, get the noisemakers, crack open some champagne (ok, scratch that, I do NOT like that stuff)....it's time for a party........a PITY party.
You know those mornings where you wake up and everything seems to be going wrong? Maybe you woke up with optimism only to discover that it is definitely a pessimism kind of day!? You know you do...no matter how much faith you have in God...you know there are days where you ask...really God, where are you?
Yeah, that is me today...this morning and RIGHT AT THIS VERY MOMENT. And what really stinks is I prayed...I prayed last night and I prayed again at 2:15 am when I was woken up and could not go back to sleep...I prayed for God's favor in just this situation and felt like a slap in the face when I woke up and found the exact opposite of what I had hoped or expected. The black cloud built over my head...my shoulders drooped....and my eyes filled just a bit with tears. I had to ask "Why God?"
I sometimes find myself in a place where I start to feel sorry for myself and my circumstance. I see my bank account and wail, I realize that what we need to survive and what is available to spend does not quite match up. I panic and than I go in a corner and stick my thumb in my mouth. All the while, Matt says...when have you known God to let us fail? It's true.
Look, we are in the midst of a hard period in our lives. Financially speaking, it is hard to keep going. But, when I take my head out of the ground long enough to look around, I can honestly see how rich we really are when you think about where we could be and where, sadly, too many people I know are now. It's easy to wallow and I think a good wallow can be good (as long as you do not stay in the pit of wallowing for long). But, you must pick yourself up...dust yourself off...and get some perspective.
And remember to keep praying. God hears our prayers and He answers them...even if we are too dumb to hear the answer. Maybe my answer is "just wait". Maybe my answer is "you need to go through this more". I do not know. But I have to TRUST in HIM. As was stated so nicely on facebook this morning:
You know those mornings where you wake up and everything seems to be going wrong? Maybe you woke up with optimism only to discover that it is definitely a pessimism kind of day!? You know you do...no matter how much faith you have in God...you know there are days where you ask...really God, where are you?
Yeah, that is me today...this morning and RIGHT AT THIS VERY MOMENT. And what really stinks is I prayed...I prayed last night and I prayed again at 2:15 am when I was woken up and could not go back to sleep...I prayed for God's favor in just this situation and felt like a slap in the face when I woke up and found the exact opposite of what I had hoped or expected. The black cloud built over my head...my shoulders drooped....and my eyes filled just a bit with tears. I had to ask "Why God?"
I sometimes find myself in a place where I start to feel sorry for myself and my circumstance. I see my bank account and wail, I realize that what we need to survive and what is available to spend does not quite match up. I panic and than I go in a corner and stick my thumb in my mouth. All the while, Matt says...when have you known God to let us fail? It's true.
Look, we are in the midst of a hard period in our lives. Financially speaking, it is hard to keep going. But, when I take my head out of the ground long enough to look around, I can honestly see how rich we really are when you think about where we could be and where, sadly, too many people I know are now. It's easy to wallow and I think a good wallow can be good (as long as you do not stay in the pit of wallowing for long). But, you must pick yourself up...dust yourself off...and get some perspective.
And remember to keep praying. God hears our prayers and He answers them...even if we are too dumb to hear the answer. Maybe my answer is "just wait". Maybe my answer is "you need to go through this more". I do not know. But I have to TRUST in HIM. As was stated so nicely on facebook this morning:
So...deep breath in.....deep breath out. Here we go. Optimism! God is in control...as much as I would like to be...He is. I must relinquish it to Him. I feel better, though, having vented a bit on here.
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